This is it. This is so hard. I'm so scattered. I try to 'ditch' extraneous hobbies, but at most I pare them down - knitting is one cardboard box, for instance. But to do it could still take hours of time... that I should be spending on music. Or I could be gaming, leveling my character. I love warcraft. But I love my instrument. Or working. Or writing that novel. There's so much one can do in life! It's so hard to say, 'no, I'm not going to do that'.
I've read so many books about motivation, organization and finding your passion. The worst is 'Refuse to Choose: What to Do When You Want to Do Everything' or something like that, by Barbara Sher. It's a good book really, but it just facilitates - enables - the scattering of energies. Some of the ideas are useful if you're not too bad - organizing ideas, ways to corral your notes and equipment, using a 'schoolday' time plan to juggle activities or cycling through them focussing on one at a time.
But we really, really can't 'do it all' no matter how many of her strategies we employ. There are only 24 hours in a day, and 8 of those for sleep.
Nobody is that much of a dilettante that they don't care if they dabble and basically suck at everything. We might not want to be single-minded virtuosi, but even moderate attainment in any field at all requires consistent endeavor.
Any time I have a free moment to do something, there is a hundred possibilities. Traveling, I pack books, ipod, sketchbook - resisted putting in the knitting... even reading, there's a dozen titles I have 'on the go'.
I'm tired of feeling pulled in so many directions. The things I care about, none of them seem frivolous to me. But there is too many. I can't choose. It's too hard.
